i went to church the other day and when i was listening to the songs that guy was performing it just got to me....i dont wanna be how i am anymore i wanna be better, i wanna be a better mother even tho im a good one, a better person even tho im not a bad one, and a better lover even tho i knw i can be the best one...i need change in my life and im starting to see what needs to be done and how to do it ...i cant expect things to be handed to me all the time i need to learn how to be more independent...not for anyone but for myself and my son...i need to learn to love and let it in..i hve no clue why im so scared to commit. but i hope all my goals get accomplished before its too late...